10 on Tuesday

1. I should make this quick, I need to give Macy Grace a bath!
2. I hurt. My teeth hurts. My mouth hurts. Why? Because I had 3 cavities filled today and along with that 3 shots to numb my mouth. And 5 extra strength tylenols later, all I can say is yowzers.
3. I'm fighting the winter junk, Jeremy's fighting the winter junk and precious lil love is fighting the winter junk (I think!).
4. She slept ALOT the past few days and she is getting SO big!
5. I still have basically not bought any christmas presents, bad bad girl!
6. I still haven't even made out my christmas list yet!
7. Tomorrow starts one of my favorite days of the year - our local christian radio station will start playing exclusively christmas music!!!!
8. I have officially quit my job, and am now a stay at home mom and wife, and couldn't be happier.
9. I did buy Macy Grace two new books today - How the Grinch stole Christmas and Merry Christmas Curious George.
10. Please pray for me, I wish I could share what is on my heart, but I just can't, so please please pray for me and God will now exactly what situation is on my heart and mind at this time. Thanks! xoxoxo

Just because...

lady in black =)

What I need to do is post one of us together, but in the mean time - isn't this cuuuuute!?!

best friends - from a mom

This post has been processing mentally inside of me for several days, maybe even weeks. I have been a parenting critic for several years. I would say ever since my teen years when I watched friends stray from the Lord and the guidance of their parents. I never understood it. We were raised the same way, under the same principles and morals. And yet so many went astray from God and His ways. And through some observation it dawned on me - parenting. It stems from good parenting and bad parenting. As I was pregnant, I prayed for wisdom on how to raise my children. I needed it. I want to allow God to use me to produce individuals with fire and excitement to follow Him. And I have viewed christian parents allow their children to do the most unchristian things and allow them to participate in activities christians should have no part in. And I've never understood it. Why? Why, do they allow this? And I decided that I would pray to the good Lord and beg Him not to allow me to loose my perspective.

Then at 3am after I feed Macy Grace and sat there in the darkness dimly lit by a lamp and I stared down at her precious features just sleeping, I started thinking. I want the best for her. I love her. I love her more then words can describe. She is my pride and joy. I want her to experience life and love life and enjoy life. And before I knew it, with tears in my eyes, I was uttering, I want to be your best friend. I'll always be here for you Macy Grace and I love you and I kissed her. Then I had to stop and pray. I was reminded of my promise to the Lord. I'm her parent. I'm not here to be her best friend, I'm here to parent her. And if in the process of parenting, God allows us to form a friendship and we can be best friends, then that's the icing on the cake, but not the cake. That might sound harsh, but it's not harsh at all. I want to be her best friend but not the risk of losing my daughter to achieve that friendship.
What do I mean? I will not always make her happy, that's not my purpose. She will not always like me. And I need to be okay with that. There will be times that I will fight against her, and in doing so, I'm actually fighting for her. I will do my dead level best to keep her from the evil snares of the devil and that might mean breaking her heart a time or two to teach her a lesson. But if I don't, she'll break mine.
I pray that Lord will keep these thoughts in front of me and I can be a good parent. But not just a good parent, but a godly parent, because I don't want just a good Macy Grace, but a godly Macy Grace. This is my purpose. In the end, if we can still be best friends, then I acknowledge that is only because of God's goodness to us.

I have totally been trying to post lately and have had trouble with my internet, hopefully it'll work tho. So, it's Tuesday, you know what that means!

10 on Tuesday (and boy do I have a lot!)

1. Macy Grace saw her first snow flake today =) It snowed it's first snow of the winter and it was pretty. We only accumulated about an inch and a half or so.

2. I have my tree up, I think it's pretty, here's a pic:


3. Jake just ate my muffin! Gr...I was just biting into my blueberry muffin and my phone rang, I got up to answer it and heard Jake licking his chops, looked over and my muffin was gone - paper liner and all, gone, vanished into the stomach of Jake!

4. So, Jeremy basically knows what all his chirstmas presents are this year. And that makes me sad. He has stumbled across nearly everyone of them. First, I left one on the front seat of my car and he looked in, okay, so that one was my fault. Second, I had one in the diaper bag as I bought it and stuffed it real quick and in his crazy look for my car keys went digging through the bag and bam! came across yet another gift. Then, I was at Walmart in the checkout lane and here comes Jeremy strolling up to say hi and see what I was buying and yes, he saw another gift. Humph.

5. I still haven't made out my wishlist this year, must do it soon!

6. I can't decide if I want to host a christmas party here at the casa for our friends. Out of the prospective guest list, one couple definitely can't make it and another most likely won't be able to and those are the two I would have really wanted here. So, I'm still toying with the idea.

7. Jeremy's office party is Saturday night along with our Sunday School class party, we will be double dipping on parties that evening.

8. I'm not sure that I mentioned that we tried for a set of family pictures last week, it equaled into a total disaster and I learned the lesson once again to just do things myself. They are so terrible I will not post them.

9. I got a new car. Well, kinda. New to me. It's a 2003 Kia Spectra. It's simple without many, I mean, any, toots and whistles, but it gets Macy Grace and I around and it's great on fuel!

10. Macy Grace had her first bottle last night, she did wonderful with it. Although I'm not who gave it to her (and I will try not to be giving her bottle myself), when I came into the room and picked her up after it, she was giving me a mean eye...yikes!

and one more because it's my blog and I want to...

11. She had her first real bath Monday night and this is how she looked at me basically the whole time:



It's better than her crying, but I'm anxious for her to actually start enjoying them =)

I'm in a funk...

Sorry to all my wonderful readers that I've been so boring, but I'm in a funk...so in lieu of words, here are a few pictures!

Oh, and I'm pleased to announce that 2 of my IRL friends are now blogging, yeah, spread the blog love =) And Miranda, how come we can't leave comments on yours?

Without further ado...






This picture is not right for all the wrong reasons, but nonetheless a picture of best friends...

confession

Yesterday I came to grip with reality and admitted the one thing I didn't want to admit. In all actuality and I confessed the one thing I never thought I would ever confess. And that is that I'm not excited about Christmas. At all. I'm not the grinch, but maybe a lil humbug. And I don't know why. I have my christmas tree up and a couple snowmen and I just want to tell Jeremy to take the rest of the boxes and get them out of my house, I have no desire to finish decorating. And I know that isn't what Christmas is about, but decorating normally shows my excitment and it's zilcho. Bummer.