I'm still here.....

This is cross-posted from this morning:

Welp, it's 6am and I'm up....not in labor. It sucks, big time. I prepared myself mentally to go into labor today, Tuesday or tonight Tuesday night, I do not want to go to the my dr's appt tomorrow, I seriously think I will cry if I do. I'm on the verge of tears right now. I feel like if we had the baby in a few more days maybe we would be more prepared, but really I don't think so.
Jeremy took off work and has to go back Friday the 14th and everyday we don't have this baby it's just more days that he looses helping me and being with me and the baby AFTER the baby is born....urgh.
Everything seems so backward, when I'm standing around I'll have a few contractions (which I can't stand around all day, I'm exhausted!), when I sit I feel like I need to pee and my lower tummy just aches and when I lay down I have alot of lower back pain and menstrual type cramping.
I'm ready, so so ready.